Don’t really know who I am anymore
I Get It Now
I never understood it, why my parents liked my sister more than me.
She’s two years younger than me, she has olive skin, dark brown almost black hair, and hazel eyes.
I’m 16, I am about as pale as it gets, my natural hair color is light brown, and my eyes are a dull gray.
She is happy, bubbly, always laughing. I cry myself to sleep, I waste my parents money on therapy, I generally hate my life.
She can do no wrong, she is the perfect daughter. I do everything wrong, I’ve just given up on doing things.
I am the daughter they wish they aborted.
I am the daughter that has had 2 suicide attempts, she stayed happy through it all.
I sometimes don’t pass a class or two. She passes all of her classes and gets A+ honor roll.
Mom and Dad praise her for everything, I get yelled at.
She is better, I get it now.
I was bullied yesterday.
I was made fun of.
I was not protected by the teacher that saw it all.
It was because of my views on religion.
I don’t believe in gods or higher powers.
My church shunned me for being the person I am.
How am I supposed to believe in a god that would let that happen?
I just don’t get it.
the last thing i wanted to hear from you is that you want to die. i don’t know what i’d do without you in my life. everything would seem so dark and dreary, but you make my heart shine and my toes tingle. i love you and i can’t lose you.
Missing You
Last night while I was trying to sleep I was thinking about you and i could’ve sworn you rolled over and kissed my cheek.
I fell in love with the sound of your breathing
Excerpt from a diary I’ll never write.
He thinks he deserves nudes from me because he works so hard to keep me happy…
When you’re trying not to cry and its like your lungs kind of just stop working and it makes you want to cry even more
i was bullied today
I’m finally getting help…. after 4 years of this i am ready to start the long journey of recovery.
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